The sad word goodbye

I am about to head off for the airport now. And I can't say that I am too happy about leaving right now, although I tell myself I should be excited for the holiday in Australia and New Zealand that is lying ahead. But in these past four months in Japan I have really enjoyed being here and having taken the decision to come back here and try to live in Japan for a while, I don't feel like leaving. I'd rather focus on networking and job search onsite right now and really establishing my life in Tokyo. But it is what it is.
I am flying from Nagoya to Cairns tonight. I'll spend two days there and will then head over to Christchurch in New Zealand where I meet my sister. I'll go back to Oz after a 3 week holiday in NZ and will spend around 2 weeks there before flying back to Switzerland from Sydney. Actually sounds like a nice plan, eh?
So that's the plan for the next weeks, then I'll settle my stuff in Switzerland, say goodbye to everyone and head back around Mid-January. No, I don't have a job yet (my search hasn't been to intensive yet either), but I am sure I want to try this. Considering that the worst-case scenario is running out of money and having to go back to Switzerland, I think I can take the risk. I've wanted to work abroad for a long time already and this is the perfect time to do it. I didn't think it would be Japan, but since I feel really at home here and am going through the "pain" of learning this language, I want to give it a shot. It certainly isn't the best and easiest place to look for a job as a foreigner with limited language skills, but again, I won't give up before having tried it... I am ready to head off for the uncertain and trade in Swiss stability, good money and well-known surroundings and a great social network for something new. I have been thinking a lot about plans for the future during these past months and I've met some inspiring people too and I've come to realize that I fear remaining stagnant and being bored more than whatever challenge lies ahead of me trying to settle down somewhere new for a while.